如果 · 死

如果 · 死

文/远山

                                                                                     当灵魂

                                                                                     从最后一个烟圈里挣脱

                                                                                     大地的酒杯

                                                                                     倾斜

                                                                                     岁月的河滩上

                                                                                     两只

                                                                                     如铁棒般冰凉的手插在

                                                                                     那些鲜活的尸体中间

                                                                                     天空含义不明

                                                                                     用笔

                                                                                     揣摩纸的思想

                                                                                     那被划破的地方

                                                                                     布满青苔

                                                                                     狗

                                                                                     从四面八方赶来

                                                                                     把我围成一匹狼

                                                                                     展开攻击

                                                                                    赤脚的孩子

                                                                                    于很多年后

                                                                                    一个有雾的早晨

                                                                                    将我残损的头骨当帽子

                                                                                    戴到他头上，直到

                                                                                    被大人们发现

                                                                                    成为哺乳期的猪槽里的

                                                                                    药引

                                                                                    或者悬崖上

                                                                                    岩白花①的根须

① ——家乡的一种花。